Devoted to NORBERTO JURASEK who went into infinity yesterday
I made this tune shortly after my third and deepest Ayahuasca experience in 2015, when my heart was opened up completely to the eternal light of love. Thank you so much, Norberto for bringing us the medicine, guiding us through our work and just for your presence. Farewell brother. Open path!
in comes the medicine
disturbing twilight of reality
anxious thoughts & doubtful feelings
overwhelmed jingle-jangled nerves
assaulted by bubbly lively imagery
squirming discarnate snakes & dragons
messengers from the other world
hairy hands & shiny claws
drawing you towards & inside the eternal black
abyss of pain & agony
sins, dirt, deformity & horniness
slime, disgust & lewdness
ancient injuries & childhood drama
whimpering & purging
longing for forgiveness
longing for peace of mind
excruciating darkness of soul
complete destruction of the ego
discomposure & bitter surrender
bad chemical taste & odor
explosions in the sacral bone
flash of lightning in every cell of the body
release, relax now
breath, deep breath
exhale
soaring flights of joy
diamant tears of gratitude
sudden exfoliation of higher levels
unfathomable complexity of vision
light-colored symbols fan out from the heart
love spreads from the anahata
crystal waves vibrate from the third eye
inconceivable & intangible creations
bob up simultanously & multidimensionaly
myness and innerness
witness of the evolving universe
watching the cosmic bloom unfold
waiting for the highest to show up
hoping, begging, crying
open up my heart
please open up my heart completely
who are you
who are you
again darkness & emptiness
again nothingness & stillness
remain silent
no answer
dying breath
dying
the end
inverse
inhale
break through
here it comes
I
I am the ageless
I am the deathless
I am the light
I am
I am
I
I
I
If you think of Gretsch as a Rockabilly guitar, which it certainly is, check this out. She can scream & howl too. I love her.
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WIND BLOWS FORWARD
as the wind blows black thru the sky
impaled demon impacts on demand
spits out morbid flesh
& real physical sore blood
shimmering & translucent red
off-color maroon mucous mules
scummy like the subway
& darker than the universe
we all now witness
this artificial desease
penetrating all in a sudden & overnite
flying into our freak-frenzy archaic faces
burned in our hearts & psychic landscapes
each man says the opposite
of the good & the true & the beautiful
stomps with rusty shaky feet
stinky fingers squeezing & chumping
dancing crumbly carbon bones
on dusty & malodorous carpets
scummy like the subway
& darker than the universe
the wind blows forward & the wind blows back
thru rancid cists & incest fences
condemned ships & open chests
scattering our pale peeled grimacing faces
& burnt out hearts & hollow minds
fatagaga live @ MTC Cologne 1999, the photo is an excerpt of a video by Michael Hanschmid
DIRTY by fatagaga, 1999
This track was recorded on analogue 4-track-tape which still was part of my workflow those days though I owned a Mac for quite some time … and I already got the MPC 2000 and the Roland MC 505 … working with these units was like playing instruments, the recording was absolutely live … and in these days I finished to play vinyl records …
the piece relates in many ways to the never realized album „Singularity“ of the year 2007
Is it a Nobs Nietzsche or a fatagaga track? … I don’t know. It goes back to the year 1989, when „fatagaga“ was yet unborn. I was deeply impressed by Brian Enos Apollo @ those times. This track is made with old analogue organs, detuned guitars and tape echoes, recorded on 4-track-tape, no synths involved …